If you have ever contemplated suicide some of what is carried may be a struggle about existing and the relevance of your life and self.  I do see addiction as a form of suicide though some of this is based in deep denial and compulsively set up out of awareness and due to deep vulnerability.  It is also significant if you have ever felt worthless, useless or unlovable which is often in the personal inventory of the addict.  The message may have been conveyed for many reasons.  If a parent feels threatened by having a child around thus neglects.  Living in a household and feeling lonely when young and profoundly scared in-case there would not be enough attention as this is one of our early primal needs.  A mother who struggled with bonding and nurturing thus, conveys rejection.  Where a parent physically or mentally abuses a child the Don’t Exist message is conveyed more overtly.  The “Don’t Exist turns up a lot in analysis which is surprising considering its death-laden implications.  I believe our early attachment sensitivity can relate to this message being collected relatively easily and does not necessarily mean a difficult childhood and neglectful parents.  I have seen this if a parent is ill and the child is cared for by grandparents for sometime, In post natal-depression and early life, or if the child is ill and experiences trauma and separation. The interpretation can be that the parents don’t want its survival.  The work of John Bowlby was significant to this in the 1970’s where he identified the devastating impact of children being separated from parents in early life.  With research the laws were changed allowing parents access to sick children in hospital.  This is why early life and existential exploration is so important for personal inventory analysis.  Afterall,  the system of someone’s environmental influences is really relevant to finding out about some of the profound message that can be collected unconsciously.  The real positive about human beings even with dangerous injunctions  is that people are extremely ingenious in staying alive.  In early years and with dangerous injunctions the child is likely to make compound decisions to defend against fatal outcomes.  These can be in the form of “Its okay for me to Exist as long as I” Keep being good, keep working hard, don’t get to close etc etc etc.  Here existence and life is based on conditional ways of being which can be difficult to sustain in adult life and get ones needs met without uncomfortable feelings being attached.