This is about admiting defeat and every natural instinct cries out against the idea of this because of the fear and letting go of control. The obsession to feed in whatever form is a primal instinct that in addiction turns into a destructive cycle. We need to feed and be soothed. For most individuals whatever using or drug of choice mainifested, it was about soothing and feeding. This then turns into a mental obsession so powerful it can be fatal and no act of self will or personal conquest unaided is able to manage. Whatever once was a friend or soother is then an enemy which once may have been loved. A dilemma of infant suvival needs to be fed and soothed that is transfered into a primal insanity and phenomenon of craving. This craving is so high its almost like ones life is dependent on it. Just like the early infant who’s life did depend on being fed and soothed to attach, grow and develop. This stimulus hunger in addiction i see as a developmental primal need and feed that goes terribly wrong thus ultimately destroys life. I also believe that addicts can’t win this on their own and recover with their own resources. This is because if the human infant was dependent at birth on others for survival why would this process not be the same when one is struggling with addiction. WE GO BACK TO OUR EARLY DEVELOPMENT AND BASIC NEEDS FOR HUMAN EVOLVING. The need to feed in addiction is like this dependent primal need thus, we have to go back to early strategies and become attached as we once were as babies to get our needs met in different ways. This to me makes sense in a way that is logical in relation to early human developement. I our adult it is about insanity and the consequences fit this. However, if we look at infant logic on survial then it makes sense to feed and sooth. This goes wrong and addiction follows in all its destructive forms. Here we see how early life script needs are transfered into the present as the addict seeks early developmental emotional fixes. The complexity here is what we once needed as infants for survival is transfered into adulthood in a selfish and destructive form. Furthermore, we keep our inner child with us all through our lives in memory, feelings, unconscious, behaviours and preferences. If this is the case then we dont just move on from early neediness but find a way to get some of this as a grown up. Addiction can relate to this process of child needs which results in the eventual consequencess of powerlessness and emotional torture.
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