To continue to take personal inventory is similar to doing a “reality check” and a “feelings check”.  These are two really important areas of self awareness where we can see whether we are in a script process or grounded in the hear and now.

If you are watching for resentments, arrogance, self-loathing, envy, dishonesty, selfishness, intolerance, hate, greed or impatience .  These can also relate to early dysfunctional survival strategies and feelings associated that we cannot deal with.  Without this check in they can be upon you before  any realisation which is why inventory is so important.  They can be upon you because of the dynamic unconscious which operates deep within our internal minds.

In simple terms its like people cannot help “acting out what they don’t know” .  This means emotionally they can be driven by very powerful forces that they are powerless to.  This creates a  reaction that usually involves dysfunctional ways of dealing with the world and the person is in a disruptive and rebellious  child place, or behaving with judgement which comes from contaminated belief systems.

The important point to note is that taking inventory gives you a better chance to see if you are into “stuff” which is script.  “If I am being arrogant and slandering someone I envy deep down”.  The pay=off down the line with this process will be negative as this is  toxic  even if short term is seems gratifying.      The taking of inventory allows you to check in with this destructive process.  Not only that there is a expectation to take responsibility for this process as it belongs to you.

This is emotional “acting out” because you are wearing your armour of arrogance because your sense of self is being impacted by someone you envy. Not only that this is being “acted out” and “projected” into the environment by the slander that is being used.  Whenever we voice something negative about another person it is usually about ourselves.  

The inventory gives the opportunity to explore this and to strive for assets instead of staying with really destructive script or uncomfortable feelings.  Perhaps if someone from the past hurt you and you envied their family life and material goods then striving for forgiveness is healthy. If this is not strived for and envy and resentment stays in place the only person who stays hurt is yourself.  It is always more comforting to live with humility then arrogance as we can connect then with integrity, acceptance and kindness which then allows intimacy and love.

We can always strive for “Looking for the Good In Others” and have patience with other peoples defects of character.  How about seeing that everyone is in this life finding their own way through it. This is even if they may have more then you or their family seems great.  This does not mean those individuals who seemingly have everything do not have any human suffering.  They do because they are emotionally driven like everyone else and have a script that once upon a time had the consequences of hurting them.  “We are all in it together” “We can always find the heart to see good in people” “We can find the patience to accept others with their script”.

This allows letting go of trying to control others and fit them into a frame of reference or mindset that we are more comfortable with.  Here we can see that often people do this so life is about the self and it really does not have to be that way.

Lastly, do not look at inventory  as something that means you have to be good.  It is a gift for you as it frees you from discomfort and discontentment.  It is about being grown up and not acting from a powerless child place.  The inventory gives you a chance to check in with yourself and see where you are .  It is a way of being kind to yourself.  It is a way of keeping safe and out of a painful script ;process.